I thought I would want to jump up and down and throw a party today. After all, I've been looking forward to this occasion for quite some time now, and today does represent a fairly hefty accomplishment.
Instead, I'm feeling quiet, reflective, and more than a little bit sad.
Today is my 100th day of Clean Eating on my Allergy Diet.
To be honest, there have been a few slips....not many...but they've been there. The difference is that this time I didn't let those slips turn into stumbles which carried me to the edge of a cliff and then sent me over the edge to tumble down, down, down - head over heels - into the depths of despair. (I like to imagine Wesley and Buttercup when I'm visualizing this.) This time I slipped, but quickly picked myself up, FORGAVE myself, and got back to the business of doing the best I could do...which is why I still count today as 100.
Novel concept, this being nice to myself.
I would also like to add that this time there has been a pretty big price to pay for each and every slip. Having been clean for a time, my body is now extremely touchy and gets pretty upset if I ingest an allergen. My doctor calls this, "unmasking," which means that I've moved from a state of chronic illness to one of acute reactions. In a way, I'm grateful for the heightened reactions because they are scary enough to frighten me away from the things I shouldn't eat.
At any rate, 100 is a big number...but it's just a drop in the ocean.
I would be lying if I didn't cop to the fact that the social difficulties of this diet are really starting to come into focus. I've found myself withdrawing quite a bit lately rather than face up to them.
But that is a post for another day....or another blog.
Today, I'll focus on the positive.
So what exactly do I get from this diet? I think many people are surprised at just how much of my overall health and well-being my food allergies have affected. A partial list (and believe me, I could go on and on if I wanted to!) of benefits includes:
- freedom from tummy aches, gas, digestive distress, constant (and embarrassing) belching...in sort, every IBS symptom that has been plaguing me on a near daily basis since I was 17
- Freedom from joint pain, (most) headaches, locked muscles, and carpal tunnel
- greatly reduced anxiety levels, an even temperament, and rapidly evaporating depression problems
- relief from acne and from facial swelling (which I didn't notice until it was gone)
- freedom from the crazy exhaustion and brain fog
- lessened chemical sensitivity
- the best - and most consistent - sleep I've ever had
- falling numbers on the scales (without any effort)
100 days down...a lifetime to go.
Thank you all for indulging me by allowing me to share this journey with you.